she's a bitch...total bitch.....

shall not waste my time anymore but i dunoe wat im doing....

young punks!!

insomnia again...

and im tinking if i sld drink some chivas or cook maggie mee to make myself sleepy.

was surfing around and saw this  you tube clip that vanessa was telling me about and she certainly proves her point!

i so totally agree with u babe!

i love this song..

back from the finally exam free outing wif my bitches..

yes...the usual babes..

this time round its somehow different...im the only one tat's single and without any dating or sort of dating..no status ppl...haha..

wendy shan van and xt are all there...plus levin...

its all x2. haha..

in pairs...luckily levin is there to make the number even else will be odd. haha

aniwae it doesnt matter...

feeling quite relax to be single now..

having the same feeling i had aft breaking up in early dec or jan..

the used to be alone...no worries...no r/s prob..no stress..nothin to be worried of kinda thing..

heh..

back and i cant slp...head spinning..headache..and i gt to be at punggol 21 at 630am.

wedding dinner...jiemei for the ermz....4th or 5th? does tat means id be single till im old all the way? hahaha....but again. doesnt matter maybe ..hmmmz

watching tat because i said so on onlinecinema.org

this website is great! all the upcoming new shows or current shows or shows i had already missed.

yes i missed. i do miss....occasionally. im human aft all

but i'll be fine.

now i wont miss watching anymore movies bcos i dun haf anyone to watch with.

since im always watching with my date or partner...

now i can watch them alone at home..for FREE! haha!

can kill time somemore! hmmmmz...great!

im a movie person....very movie...

was fun just now...haha...hope was better thou. hope we can meet up more since everyone will be back to the usual routine life...being busy working..etc...we sld try to put in more effort and meet up more! hehehe..

i'll be fine. i 'll...its just yet another...

just another passerby

i feel so much for this tanya chua song....somehow

or all her new songs...

just back from st james with some frens...

felt bored...felt weird...felt alone... felt strange

isit bcos of the crowd? im not used to part with them..

they all comes in pair

maybe im single out.

wonder if its fate or wat...the taxi just make a longer route home....passing by the usual place tat i once frequent.

taxi stop at the usual traffic light junction...

thoughts just rush into me....thoughts of history....thoughts of the past...

certainly over...but sometimes...just like to tink back

think of stuff...think of wat if?

tons of wat if....

wat if....i say no to tat ktv nite.

i say no to dinner tat evening....will things change?

i might live better now....maybe...

simply

I hate the way you talk to me. And the way you whisper into my ears.
I hate the way you nag about my driving. I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big smartass brains And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick — It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh — Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around. And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you — Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

for the past few days.

ppl from my past are coming back in sequence to haunt me.

bastards. irritants.

ppl from my teenage days.

so typical.

giving me more probs and proven to me once again why im not interested in guys.

so .. no feeling at all

totally.

plus the gastric tats with me for past 1.5 days..

just ruined everything.

wana study but cant really do it.

just lie on bed the whole day...gt to get myself out of the hse to study

stupid ppl ....irritating.

so gona just avoid their calls.

i wana whine and complain abt wat happened ...totally...everything

argggg....

where are u? will u listen to tat incident

unfortunate events.

so utterly disgusted...totally!

im just suay or wat? super suay.

freaking cant slp bcos my whole mind is filled with tat. ARG!

enjoying every little moment.

guess its time u smile as u recall.

things change...they always do

leave and seek peace.

things does gets better

they always do

blessings.

as always.

sleepless nite.

seeking truth and answers.

feeling strong.

.......

i just want my kinky phuket trip or just phuket trip is sufficient.

just want a getaway off sg. really away and off from sg. out of town.

who wana sponsor me 2k? 1k for air tixs and another 1k for expenses to aussie land?

there's so many things i could do...beer...beers...and lotsa beer

lotsa heineken...absinthe...every bit of everything

redwine e33 champagne. beer.

it just doesnt seems to make me high.

it cost me at least 150 bucks to be high. how expensive can tat be?

any other cheaper source?

i feel horrible....

can someone just kill me nw

gastric is killing me....

been having bad gastric...very bad...

getting irritated and very irritated..

i feel empty once again...

going out doesnt seems to cure anything.

i wonder wat happen to me...in denial

constant denial.

who can pull me out from tat deep well tat i fall upon.

somoene pls save me...

i dun wana get addicted animore. i rather suffocate myself or drown myself in booze and pills to forget abt stuff...

k tat sounds bad....but its just a statement...watever it is.

i hate this. i forgot how to move on.

even when im having fun outside....id feel empty.

even if im out....id still be sad.

so...going out doesnt means will make me feel better...i used to be able to forget abt stuff by going out...

but its not working now! HOW!!!!

so pls...just shoot me down.

i hate myself

home alone..

plus period..

doesnt seems tat nice...

plus gastric....

plus i wana drink alcohol...red wine...

things doesnt seems to be tat nice....

where's tat switch im looking for.

wana off it